Rain rain come again. Really..

Rain, how wonderful that sound. Those heavenly waters that grace themselves down from the sky so touch the earth in a symphony of droplets. All this appreciation is totally from the mad weather here. Its been so humid here lately to a point that I might just internally combust due to excess body heat. First of the fires in the forest in the neighbouring country had heated things up, and it is this time that mother nature decides to blow the wind with all the heat, smoke, dust, debries, and what-nots here. So here comes the dillema. To cool myself down, I would turn on the aircond. By doing that, I have just contributed in global warming and would eventually suffer as well. Hmmm. Guess I'll leave future me to worry about that. *reaches for aircond remote*

Death On The Stairs.

How could this day possibly go any worse... headache+tummyache+sore throat combo!
argh my nose and ears are blocked too :(
Ive never felt any sick than this before! Gosh!! I think its because I hardly get sick and when I do, it totally comes with everything. Full combo laahh! huhuhuhu.
Hmm... Anyway, I have a story that I would like to share with you people out there.
So here it goes...

I have this housemate named Yasmin aka Chubby. Yeah literally. She thinks shes all that hott and etc but the fact is she's just fat and dumb. Im not being mean or whatever its juz is like that. Ive tried to be nice to her but then that pathetic bitch does not know how to appreciate. She never ever tells the truth heck i think she prolly never did lah her entire life. She makes up stories. She makes every group of friends fight and seperate. She totally bullshits. Shes stupid. Yeah she is. All her lies are stupid. Obvious lies. Thinking people dont know. She goes around telling shes a 4 pointer student and never ever took any supplementary paper. Total bullshit! Wei minah kau buat diri sendiri malu je lah.

She was doing law. And apparently from what Ive been hearing around most of d law students hate her because of her fucked up attitude. *I totally agree on that!* So she change la to business. Dalam banyak-banyak course minah tu kena laa jugak nak ambik marketing management sama dgn aku gak kan. Ish. And d most retarded part is she goes telling people that shes doing engineering! Omg what an idiot kan?? As if people wont find out lah kan. aihh.. Some people are born to be retarded naah just her..

Whatever lah kan i couldnt careless about her coz what she do is her life right? She wanna bullshit and live in an imaginary life so be it then. I really dont give a damn! Till yesterday! You totally crossed d line bitch. Aku tak sibuk ngan hidup kau, kau nak menyemak plak dalam hidup aku kan. Youve messed with d wrong person la. Im not like ur idiot friends who would listen to whatever u say and obey mcm anjing kurap tepi jalan ok. Kau cari pasal ngan aku dulu so ok lah il get back to you twice as worse.

Principles of Marketing class 6 to 7pm. We were suppose to find a group for those who havent got any yet. All of us meet up at d lecturer's table for briefing bout d assignment. Bryan's friend, Aliman, came up to a girl and me asking to join his group. We said ok. And what bad luck could I possibly get lah! That bitch came up next to him terhegeh-hegeh nak join the group. Aliman being a nice person and knows nothing bout that bitch accepted her in d group. I was fine by that as long as she minds her own business. But no! Of course she wouldnt! That bitch pulled Aliman to d side and talked shit bout me to him. Howd I know this? This is because Aliman didnt look at me nor pass d paper for d group names to me. Pretty damn obvious already right? Pisst? Yeah of course I am pisst! zz.

I hope you'll be reading this bitch. Il fcking make sure you fcking fail ur coursework.

Inside The Skull

Class started like normal.
5 subjects.
all 8am class.
it has been a torturing week to wake up and go to class.
bathing with cold water in d morning gives me headache.
same old routine day to day is really getting to my head already.
but there is nothing else to do anyway.
boring week.
its been hot this whole week.
my room is so freakin stuffy tho all d windows are opened and never closed.
certain people juz annoys me to d max this week.
im still wanting my moonlight shower.
im looking forward to that trip though we're still not sure when and where and what.
tones of assignment to be done.
still im not gonna start any of em soon.
i wanna get high.
i wanna go swimming.
i wanna go to d butterfly farm.
i wanna eat ice cream.
i wanna car.
ish.
so many things in my mind right now.
itll be a super long post if i actually let it all out here.
il juz stop right here.
goodnight.
.xx.

He said, She said

A dear friend once told me that
no matter what people say or advice you, by the end of the day you are the one to make that decision and you will be the one to be held responsible for of what to come.

Yeah, you're right.
I made my choice.
I took the chance.
I'll stick with it.

Thanks for being there for me.
:)

Broken doll

Lights off. Only the scented aromatherapy candles were lighted up. Two of them. She figured that it might soothe her-calm her. She sat in d corner of her room. Reminiscing how her life had been these past year, tears started to flood her eyes and flowed like a river at a constant speed. Her happy memories. Her sad ones. Everything came and went. She had been happy with him. She had never loved anyone like this ever before. She opened up to him. Knowing that she might get hurt again and still she took that chance feeling that he worth it. She cared about him. She felt safe with him.

The feeling that she felt at that very moment was a feeling she had never felt before. It was so painful that her whole body just kinda felt numb. Her heart felt like it was pierced with a thousand thorns. A glass smashed to a million pieces. That was how it was. He had hurt her in all the ways thats possible. She knew some of it was her fault. She knew a certain thing about him but she never mentioned it just coz she thought that it might make matters worse. But now its too late. Old wounds bleed again. New ones juz wont seem to heal. The pain would never go away. Though she can forgive, d pain would juz remain there.

She cried so hard so much to d extend that tears stop flowing. She needed to channel out d pain she felt. The next thing she realised was d blood streaming from the 2 lines on her arm which synbolized the number 2. The sight of it somehow somewhat weirdly soothes her. She didnt feel pain from the cut. She juz stared at it.

Realising that it was almost sunrise and her dad might find her distraught like that, she went to bed and cried herself to sleep.

She had always loved him and will always do.

Insomnia

omg! what d hell is wrong with me?? its 6am and i still cant sleep. tossing and turning on d bed for d past 2hours or so. zzz.

ive been thinking of what to blog as right now my life is practically dull! this is d most suck ass semester break ever. MMU's timetable is way off then d rest of d uni or colleges here. sigh. its a record for me to be at home most of d time for a long period. lol.

so, ive decided to post up some old memories and experience which ive gained ever since i stepped in MMU.. it will be up soon alrite.

right now im off to bed. well at least try to sleep again.
xx.